As the reader might know, I’ve been living in the not-so-flat province of Saskatchewan for basically two years. I have been spending time in Québec for summer & Christmas vacation but otherwise I have been in Saskatchewan.
These last months went by so quickly and I don’t know if I used my time wisely, or its best. I remember writing here that these months would be a time of loneliness but God has been extremely good to me, He kept me busy and working with good people that life seemed pleasant to me. People would ask me if I was looking forward to leaving Saskatchewan and I’d say that I wasn’t so excited yet because it was too far away. Until this morning I did not really realize that my time here in the Prairies would be over pretty soon, 10 days.
I spent the weekend in Regina, to see some friends one more time before I leave. It’s weird to say good-bye to people I love knowing that it might be the last time I see them on this side of life, and I’m only 21. Traveling back to Saskatoon I caught myself considering many things and realizing that all the time left I had here was 10 days. I wondered about the worth of leaving home, growing relationships and having to leave them probably for ever. I wondered about my tears, if the sorrow of my heart was something God wanted, if it was healthy. I know that it’s good to “mourn” but sometimes I get myself into things that hurt me and there would have been a different way to go that would have been less painful. I don’t know what I’m thinking. Are my friendships worth the pain of saying good-bye? It’s obvious, yes they are. But it’s still hard to embrace and understand why things work that way on earth.
Our God, our God! Your will is unfathomable and perfect. You do not think as we think and your wisdom surpasses all we can understand. Oh, let us all surrender to the desires of your Holy Spirit daily, today, right now. Let us embrace our today because you are in control as we let you be Ruler over us.
Bank for Native Missionaries: 8$ as of June 19, 2006 www.banknm.blogspot.com
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According to most people I might be boring 'cause I don't talk much and according to others, well I think too much. That's fine. I just want to use this blog to share what I'm learning as I try to walk with my Savior Jesus. I know I make mistakes, but I trust God will use these thoughts to encourage and challenge some of you and call you to a higher obedience.
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Ahh, I wrote you a nice long comment and it disappeared.
Well, it was random anyways and I'm not going to write it all over again. Hey anyways, I will try and pray for your camp. :)
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