When I was a kid I used to love making cards for people, like birthday cards, I just enjoyed drawing cartoons and I had a good imagination, I always had ideas of things to draw. Since I finished “L’école secondaire” (let’s say high school) I found myself with little imagination. Why? I’m not sure, maybe I stopped drawing my 365 drawings a year and my imagination got down the drain. Yes I was a radical. But anyways, that’s not my point. Today I found myself a bit bored. Too much thinking and reading on a day off is extremely bad for me at times. So I remembered that it was one of my friends’ birthday today and I had forgotten to make her a card. So I sat down at my desk with a white sheet of paper. I knew right away what to do with it. I folded it in 4. But that was the extent of my imagination. If I’d be 11 years old today, I would have drawn something nice right away, but 10 years later, it’s different. I just didn’t know what to draw. So I found some cheese stickers that I got at work and cut them to form letters and sticked “Happy B day” on the card. Then I wrote a little something in the card, you know what I mean. I found myself thinking and writing down (yes, in the card) my random thought. I wrote “I wonder if I take my life too seriously and the lives of others not as seriously as I should” or something like that.
Isn’t it true? Just read my last entry and you’ll see. I’ve been sort of thinking –worrying- not extremely much, but a lot these last days about next fall and what will happen with me, where will I be and what will I do. Then I find this thought popping in my mind, maybe I take my life too seriously and I don’t care enough about other people’s life. I felt like expanding my thought in the birthday card, but I woke up realizing that this was not my blog or the notebook I write in, it was a birthday card. It was a good surprise to think about that when I had been worrying about my life. Maybe I do take my life too seriously and I worry about trivialities and God’s will and future stuff and etc. too seriously and I should be thinking about God’s Kingdom, how I can serve Him today in practical ways, how I can care for someone else’s life, love, help, provide wisdom and encouragement to people. I think that if I take the lives of people around me and on earth seriously I will automatically fulfill my own desire to take my life seriously. Wasn’t it the way Jesus lived? I don’t think He spent much time thinking about His needs and His desires and His future, although, I am sure He did to some extent. But I believe that His heart was fixed on His Father’s desires and on His fellows’ needs. It makes me think of the greatest commandment “Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul and with all your mind” (Mat. 22:37) and the second greatest one, “Love your neighbor as yourself” (Mat. 22:38). If I want to live by these 2 commandments, my life will be centered on God and people. I don’t mean to say that one shouldn’t take one’s life seriously at all. We have to be good stewards of what we have, things, opportunities, money and so on. But we need to focus our hearts on God’s desires, on people’s needs and live not for our own benefit, but for Jesus’, for others’.
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